all i can give you is my word

Everyone ...

thank you. For waiting. And for ... I ...

...

Whatever happens now ... whatever we do next ... I ... I won't lie to myself. I won't. I'll go mad from facing truth before I'll go mad pretending it isn't there. I promise you that ... I promise everyone that.

I'm ... I'm not strong. I'm not ... I always thought that I was, because I was ... well, I was smart, and ... ... ... well, but I'm not. I ... I can't promise that I ... that I'll ...

...

I can't promise anything, except that I will not live in lies. I will see the truth ... even if the truth hurts so badly ... even if the truth makes no sense at all ...

... hahaha. I'm a little queasy, now ... I guess I shouldn't have eaten so much after eating so little ... hahaha