she's got it bad

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I think there are times when I take things for granted ...

Lauren and Zacharias ... between them, and their games, and the times we have together, it's so ... easy, sometimes, to forget about ... home ... and ... and everything ...

I ... I still have no idea of what is going on, but when I'm beside them, it's like it's a million miles away, and ...

I wonder ... I wonder what I would do, if ...

maybe what I told lauren and sawyer wasn't

Oh, what am I thinking about. It's just ... it's just I've never had friends like this before. Felicia, of course, but Felicia is a noblewoman, so it isn't the same, and, of course Lauren is a noblewoman, but she's not like the noblemwomen here, and ... and ... and I've had acquiantances, but ...

...

It's nothing, I'm sure.

I know that I can't hide from it forever, but ... well, Lawrence will be here soon, and he'll know exactly what to do.

I can't wait to fly.