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[Filter: Private]

I apologize and she just -- how dare she?! I ... I put myself out to her and she spit in my face? Why should it ... matter what my specific word choice was? I doesn't matter, and then she doesn't even have the courage to say a ... a single word to the two people big enough to defend me?

I have always considered Miss Belle a ... a trusted companion, and even a friend, but this ... how unbelievably rude, and ... and self-entitled, and ...

... I apologized!

I wonder if she would be so ... inaccessible if Lauren or Kail or Sawyer were to find her in the hallways and make her talk to them. That's a ... wonderful thought.

I refuse to tell her what she wants to hear, I ... I refuse!

She is not coming to my party.

[Filter: Lauren]

Ah, I have all of the food prepared, and most of the cloth cut ... I think that the staff is angry that we're doing this, but ... but I don't want Kail's birthday to be like mine, where everyone was crying, and ... I know they're in mourning, but ...

Well, does it make me a terrible person for trying to ... to bring a little happiness to us? To ... to just for one moment ...

Perhaps it does ... perhaps it really is in terribly poor taste, I ...

I've put notes under the doors of everyone I care to see there ... ah, Jace can't come, of course, his leg ... ah, but ... I gave invititations to ... ah, let me think ... Calaith, Inara, Kolton ... Demi ... Sawyer and Uncle, of course, and Nessa ... Irving and Loki, Finlay and Rae ... ah, Druce, of course ... Andrew, Christopher ... ah, perhaps some others I missed ...

I didn't invite Jordan because of his leg ... or Fayre and Elden and Jasmine, because ... well, because I hate them. And I ... I left Belle off the the list because I just don't think her actions have been very deserving of a party invitation ...

Does that all sound ...?

... is this in terribly poor taste? I could stop it now, if it is ...