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... ah haha ...

With all the excitement, it's ... it's been so easy to forget, but ...

Well ... it's been a year, hasn't it? Since ... since that night. We ... we ate dinner overlooking the city ... he ... he was so wonderful, so sweet ... we smiled and laughed and he ... he talked about ... about the moons ... about me ... And then ... the pendant ... ... and then the rest.

I haven't worn it, yet. I ... I suppose everytime I see it, I think of that night, of him just ... just leaving ... just walking away and leaving me there, and feeling ... feeling like the world had ... just ... just collapsed on itself. ... it doesn't have to be like that, thought ... does it?

... I know ... ... I know he loves me. Now, he ... maybe not then ... no, certainly not then, he ... he wasn't ready yet. But now? I know that he loves me, now. There's nothing else that makes sense. Nothing he does makes any ...

So ... so how long is he going to wait? I've made the mistake in the past of assuming he's going to surprise me on some special day. Rose Day ... and then when all of that ... terrible business was happening ... ah, and my birthday, and then ...

I shouldn't expect anything ... I've let it ruin too many days in the past.

But ... but must he? Must it be like this? Now it's less that he can't say it and more that he won't. What does he have to lose? I know it ... he knows it ...

Can't he just ... just say it?

Hm ...

Ah, I still have so much to do ... what Lady Canti said is true, it always feels so much better once it's done, but I just keep ...

[Filter: Nessa]

I .... ah, Nessa ...?