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It's ... it's not fair.

I ... I shouldn't need to be on my very ... best behaviour, doing everything the way that she thinks I should, just because ... just because ... it's -- ridiculous. It's ... I can't. I just can't. I don't care what everyone else says, I ... I don't even care that people are going to talk.

... Ruseia ...

I saw the look in her eyes. It's not -- it doesn't matter what I do ... it doesn't matter how much Lawrence and Nessa and Keagan all push her ... and it doesn't matter how much logic they give her. She doesn't want me to have my pegasus, she ... just doesn't. She'll find a reason not to let me go out again ...

Some reason ...

Any reason.

... and I -- I won't be away from Jace, just ... hoping that maybe if I do, she'll be more likely to change her mind.

I'm not throwing away what I do have ... chasing something that I never will.

... I never will.

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Ah, Jace ...

Everyone ... everyone seems to be downstairs right now, don't they? Ah, or busy with something else, or ... or ...

It doesn't really seem as though anyone is watching, does it ...?