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Mar. 7th, 2012 01:26 am[Filter: Private]
... that had to have been the worst birthday I ever spent. I ... I suppose I never really know what it was like, the way girls treat one another. Who would ever have giggled behind their hands at me, when I was the only daughter of Roivas of Franel? And then I was here, with these people. Ah, there's always been Fayre and Jasmine and Maeve, and before them, there was Chiel, but ...
But this is so different from that.
Being among those people on my birthday, having them all laughing at me and pretending not to be, I ...
I don't want to be here, anymore.
And Lawrence, and Kail, and Lauren, and Keagan, and Nessa. All going on all day, telling me about how wonderful it's going to be when they finally convince Ruseia to let me go out and catch another pegasus. Don't they see? Are they ... blind? I ruined it. I wasted that chance. And Ruseia will never give me another one. She ... she despises failure. Or weakness ... and ... and I failed and was weak, both. I made a stupid mistake. It was so ... stupid.
The only person who understands I don't want to go back out is Jace. Thank the Dragons for him, ah ...
... and Sawyer, I suppose, but ...
...
[Filter: Sawyer]
... ah, I ... I think I should tell you something ...
... that had to have been the worst birthday I ever spent. I ... I suppose I never really know what it was like, the way girls treat one another. Who would ever have giggled behind their hands at me, when I was the only daughter of Roivas of Franel? And then I was here, with these people. Ah, there's always been Fayre and Jasmine and Maeve, and before them, there was Chiel, but ...
But this is so different from that.
Being among those people on my birthday, having them all laughing at me and pretending not to be, I ...
I don't want to be here, anymore.
And Lawrence, and Kail, and Lauren, and Keagan, and Nessa. All going on all day, telling me about how wonderful it's going to be when they finally convince Ruseia to let me go out and catch another pegasus. Don't they see? Are they ... blind? I ruined it. I wasted that chance. And Ruseia will never give me another one. She ... she despises failure. Or weakness ... and ... and I failed and was weak, both. I made a stupid mistake. It was so ... stupid.
The only person who understands I don't want to go back out is Jace. Thank the Dragons for him, ah ...
... and Sawyer, I suppose, but ...
...
[Filter: Sawyer]
... ah, I ... I think I should tell you something ...
