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May 18th, 633 AR
Dec. 30th, 2015 09:12 pm[Filter: Franelcrew]
It's... it's hard, ah haha. To... to distance from the answers I want, right now, the things I want to learn and know and hear, and what's... important. What will help. What...
Ah.
This is what I... came up with. After a night of tossing and turning, ah haha... which Jace could tell you all about in aggrieved detail...
- Is what's happening with us -- with my family, with all of us -- directly related to the seals? This quest, these... trials. Is one because of the other?
- ... why -- ah. I... I think I understand, based on the things Miss Naelene has said, that... that the reasons Franel exists there and not there are just... political. Something that happened. The death of a family line, and... and somehow, some version of us lived on in different lives, but -- but why did we have to -- switch? The way that we did? Why are we here, on this side? Surely, the Clerics must have been on both? And... I just -- I think it must be important. Why I had to become -- her. The other Celeste. And she... I suppose -- she became... me? I've been thinking about this constantly since we learned... two sides. A mirror image. If I came here, and inhabited her, then she must have... gone somewhere? Gone to me. ... why? Why was it needed? Why did it have to happen this way? And her -- them. What are they doing, on their -- on our side?
It... might not matter. It's just... I've been thinking about it. So much. And... it might?
- And the Citadel. It's more than just... more than just a destination, I know it. Something... something is waiting for us. Not just the Clerics. Not just the family of the souls we carry. But something else. Do P -- do Suaimeas and Crionna know anything... anything about that?
... that's what I have. I'm -- sorry if it's scattered. Still, after all these years, I'm not especially good at expressing ideas...
It's... it's hard, ah haha. To... to distance from the answers I want, right now, the things I want to learn and know and hear, and what's... important. What will help. What...
Ah.
This is what I... came up with. After a night of tossing and turning, ah haha... which Jace could tell you all about in aggrieved detail...
- Is what's happening with us -- with my family, with all of us -- directly related to the seals? This quest, these... trials. Is one because of the other?
- ... why -- ah. I... I think I understand, based on the things Miss Naelene has said, that... that the reasons Franel exists there and not there are just... political. Something that happened. The death of a family line, and... and somehow, some version of us lived on in different lives, but -- but why did we have to -- switch? The way that we did? Why are we here, on this side? Surely, the Clerics must have been on both? And... I just -- I think it must be important. Why I had to become -- her. The other Celeste. And she... I suppose -- she became... me? I've been thinking about this constantly since we learned... two sides. A mirror image. If I came here, and inhabited her, then she must have... gone somewhere? Gone to me. ... why? Why was it needed? Why did it have to happen this way? And her -- them. What are they doing, on their -- on our side?
It... might not matter. It's just... I've been thinking about it. So much. And... it might?
- And the Citadel. It's more than just... more than just a destination, I know it. Something... something is waiting for us. Not just the Clerics. Not just the family of the souls we carry. But something else. Do P -- do Suaimeas and Crionna know anything... anything about that?
... that's what I have. I'm -- sorry if it's scattered. Still, after all these years, I'm not especially good at expressing ideas...
