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Mar. 2nd, 2008 12:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
celestialsoul[Filter: Private]
Today ...
Today, I ... I'm a woman.
I haven't felt like a girl for a ... a long time, actually, but ... ah, I suppose it's true that ... seeing things forces you to grow up. Forces you ...
But ... but today, there's no ... there's no argument about it, not more ... technicalities, now ... now it's ... I'm eighteen. I truly am a woman ... ah, I suppose I would be ... getting married, if I were a home ... what a ...
... there's no cause to celebrate, though ... is there ...? There's ... this is no time to ... that's part of being an adult, too, isn't it? Losing ... losing people, seeing people do things you never ... dreamed that they could ... possibly be capable of, and ... and living with all of that ... it's ...
... Sister Corrina really is gone. A girl like her ... someone like her should live until she's one hundred, not ... not have her throat slit in her bed a world away from her home. And however ... cruel all of that is, what's even worse is that Chiel ...
I hated her. I've ... always hated her, for the first moment. I hated the way she talked, the way she acted, how heartless she was ... I hated the awful person she turned Jace into, I hated the way she brought ... everyone down to her level, I hated how she hated me, but all of that ...
Did she deserve ...
Father Terrance ... he always so ... so gentle, so kind ... so ... no matter how many mistakes he made, it was always so clear that he was trying his best, and his faith was always so simple but so trouching and he ... and then, he ... now, he ...
I can't ...
How ... how does one celebrate, when ... when the world is just ... falling apart?
Today ...
Today, I ... I'm a woman.
I haven't felt like a girl for a ... a long time, actually, but ... ah, I suppose it's true that ... seeing things forces you to grow up. Forces you ...
But ... but today, there's no ... there's no argument about it, not more ... technicalities, now ... now it's ... I'm eighteen. I truly am a woman ... ah, I suppose I would be ... getting married, if I were a home ... what a ...
... there's no cause to celebrate, though ... is there ...? There's ... this is no time to ... that's part of being an adult, too, isn't it? Losing ... losing people, seeing people do things you never ... dreamed that they could ... possibly be capable of, and ... and living with all of that ... it's ...
... Sister Corrina really is gone. A girl like her ... someone like her should live until she's one hundred, not ... not have her throat slit in her bed a world away from her home. And however ... cruel all of that is, what's even worse is that Chiel ...
I hated her. I've ... always hated her, for the first moment. I hated the way she talked, the way she acted, how heartless she was ... I hated the awful person she turned Jace into, I hated the way she brought ... everyone down to her level, I hated how she hated me, but all of that ...
Did she deserve ...
Father Terrance ... he always so ... so gentle, so kind ... so ... no matter how many mistakes he made, it was always so clear that he was trying his best, and his faith was always so simple but so trouching and he ... and then, he ... now, he ...
I can't ...
How ... how does one celebrate, when ... when the world is just ... falling apart?
