celestialsoul | (no subject)

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I ...

I dream, about the things I saw.

At first, I ... I barely ... remembered them. They were just shadows ... memories of memories, but ... ah.

The more time passes, I ... I see them more clearly. A man dying. I ... I loved that man, and he died, and it was ... it was the worst thing that ever could have happened to me. I ... there was ...

And there was a song.

I can't remember it. I ... I just remember that it mattered, that it was important, and that ... ah, somehow ... somehow, that song changed everything.

Something, I changed everything ...

... I don't understand.

Kail and Lawrence ... they ... they've never remembered like this, have they? I ... they've always said that it's all a blank ... they remembered feeling things, but not what they felt. But me ...

I remember, clearer and clearer every day. I can't make sense of what I see, but I see it all the same ...

I wonder if it's this place. It's wonderful, it's beautiful, but there's ... there's something about it ...