celestialsoul | (no subject)

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Oh ...

I am getting worse, I swear I am. I'm just ... too exhausted and sore to be improving any. And ... and it never seems worth it to block or parry when I know I'll just miss ...

I'm ... I'm awful.

... what a silly dream. Ah ... I'll never have a pegasus. A pegasus knight isn't just ... a woman with a beautiful dream mount, it's ... it's discipline! There's ... military aspects, and, and ... training, and ...

Oh, if I can't even manage this light little practice lance ...

It's completely useless. There's ... no point. There isn't ... and I'll never be allowed to catch a pegasus. It would never be worth the time ... the supplies ... none of it.

It's not ... it's not fair ... Lauren says that I'm the best natural rider she's ever seen, and ...

It's not fair.

I don't want to practice tomorrow, truly, I ... I just can't. Not with Sir Irving and Sir Loki trapped down there. I just ... I don't have it. I ... I don't. I can barely focus when everythng is going well, and ... and ...

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That's ... ah.

Did ... Dragons, did no one think to read this sign?